Pencil marks on a wall. I wasn't always this tall. You scattered some monsters from beneath my bed. You watched my team win. You watched my team lose. You watched when my bicycle went down again. But when I was weak. Unable to speak. Still I could call you by name. Elbow-healer. Superhero. Come if you can. And you said "I AM"
Only 16, life is so mean. What kind of curfew is at 10pm? You saw my mistakes. You watched my heart break. Heard when I swore I'd never love again. But when I was weak. Unable to speak. Still I could call you by name. And I said: Heart-ache Healer. Secret Keeper. Be my Best Friend. And you said, "I AM".
You saw me wear white, by pale candlelight. I said forever to what lies ahead. Two kids and a dream. With kids that can scream, too much it might seem when it's 2am. When I am weak. Unable to speak. Still I will call you by name. Shepard. Savior. Pasture-maker. Hold onto my hand. And you said, "I AM"
The winds of change and circumstance blow in and all around us. So we find a foothold that's familiar. And bless the moments that we feel You nearer.
Life had begun, I was woven and spun. You let the angels dance around the throne. And who can say when? But they'll dance again, when I am free and finally headed home. I will be weak. Unable to speak. Still I will call You by name. Creator. Maker. Life-Sustainer. Comforter. Healer. My Redeemer. Lord and King. Beginning and the End. I AM, yes, I AM.
"I Am" by Nichole Nordeman
Right now for me, I feel God as a Sustainer. Depending on when you ask me, life is more or less difficult. My sanity and survival depends on knowing, feeling and experiencing the sustaining presence of the Lord.
A few years back I got a tattoo. I never thought I'd get a tattoo, because I'm not one drawn to self-inflicting pain. Plus I have a strong aversion to needles. Nonetheless, I got the name "Yahweh" tattooed on my left ring finger. Yahweh is the Hebrew name describing God as "I AM".
For me it means so much. Having it right there on my ring finger, just above my wedding ring, reminds me that, in addition to being Josh's bride, I am the bride of Christ (along with the collective Church). Yahweh can also be translated "I Am who I said I Am." That's what my faith rests on, that God is who He said He is. He can be trusted for that. For me my tattoo is a symbol and remembrance that I am the bride of Christ, and He has promised to redeem His bride.
This post feels disjointed to me, but somehow it's all flowing from the same place in my heart. Tonight I'm appreciating the way God is never-changing, yet so diverse that He can meet a lifetime of needs and be trusted to do so! AMEN.
